I had a wonderful moment this afternoon. DH and I were out with little X at a preserved railway. I was riding along, in the late summer sun, with my head stuck out of the window of the carriage, smoke and steam billowing past. We paused for the engine to run round at the end of the line and opposite me was a corn field, harvested and now all stubble. Around the margin of the field the wild flowers were growing up through the stray corn and stubble. Suddenly I saw for the first time ever a scene that made me want to stitch it.
I have discussed here previously, how working on my bags of fun bag has enabled me to enter new territory in drawing my own patterns for the work I have done. To take a step away from slavishly following someone else's design. This is another new step. I looked at the field in a new way and 'saw' the image I wanted to create in stitches, ideas began to leap into my mind of what stitches and which threads. Unfortunately I did not have a camera with me, and my visual memory is weak so I do not know if I will ever actually capture those colours. But for now the amazing thing is the idea, the desire so sew something that I have seen and I have interpreted in stitch. Wow, I cannot really convey how it felt.
Since Wednesday's meeting about X I have been feeling down and blue, today was especially bad and traces of that malaise remain, but now I also have a warm, but somewhat frightening new feeling. I can do this design thing, can't I? I never thought I could before, I never realised I wanted to, but somewhere I had the ability I didn't know I had. Now ALL I need to do is to realise it, make it real. Oh, is that all? LOL. But, no, I should not disparage :) the hardest most surprising part is done. I had the idea! Is this how you design?